There was a point in my life when clean eating and workouts were all I consumed. I made sure I ate the right type of food, consumed the exact amount of calories for my body type, maintained my weight and muscle mass, and hit the gym at least 6 times a week. Well, 2015 hit and I didn’t keep up with my routine and lifestyle anymore. Life got in the way and I began to eat everything I saw and didn’t know what it felt like to be full. I gained roughly 40-50 lbs over a span of 5 years, and it devastated me. To look in the mirror at a body that I didn’t recognize that I thought wasn’t even mine was hard. I always had a slender, lanky frame and it was hard to gain weight. When I did gain and see this change in my body it was hard to take. It was passed off as getting older, not working out as much or eating like I used to. But regardless of those excuses, it wasn’t me.
It was hard but last year, I refused to let the pandemic add more weight on me. I started with the Daniel Fast in February. No meat, only fruits, vegetables, and grains. I remember starting this fast I took a strong hold of my stomach and said “you are coming down! I want you to go away!” I prayed for 21 days, journaled and kept the disciplined mindset I used to have when I was body building. I managed to drop 10 lbs but I needed to see more of a dip. I was also weening off my antidepressants, which caused the weight gain, but I didn’t know how long it would take to rid that from my system. I did intermittent fasting where I didn’t eat breakfast, only drank coffee in the morning, drank water and did 10 minutes of cardio before noon. By lunch time I would eat something light and dinner would be heavier with some type of protein or even a protein shake. September hit and I did the Daniel Fast again. I dropped another 10 lbs and was starting to slowly feel good again.
December came and I said this is it. I have to make this change. There’s something I’m not doing and I have to commit to this for my health and well-being. A friend told me about Medi Weightloss, a weight loss program designed to assist in losing weight safely and accurately by medical professionals. I figured I was beyond hope. Nothing I used to do was working and before I even thought of trying to get weight surgically removed I would involve medical assistance. They helped me understand the true importance of nutrition, how and why to say no, and how to feel good in my skin. I basically had to put my body in a calorie deficit for the first 6-8 weeks (just like I did when I was body building). I did light cardio because without carbs my body wasn’t using it as an energy source so I had to avoid lifting weights so I wouldn’t pass out.
After I hit my goal weight in February, I was amazed. I saw myself again, a body I hadn’t seen in almost 5 years. I was able to wear clothes that fit and I wasn’t feeling like my body was going through hormonal changes. I know some of my friends and family may either be tired of hearing the story but it makes me feel good inside that I can love my body again. Some people thought my weight gain was cute; I had hips and I was curvy, I looked full and healthy. But I didn’t feel healthy. It was never about being skinny or slender but it was about truly being healthy. I wanted to feel control and I had lost that. My body was something I always managed to maintain and keep intact. My weight gain became something I didn’t know how to maintain.
It’s not about what others think, it’s about you at the end of the day. If I let other’s determine how I was supposed to look there’s no telling who I’d be right now. I wouldn’t be me. The “me” is the person that is in control that says how they’re body should look and feel, not others. This is a body that, essentially, I have to live with for the rest of my life. And even if no one says it, because I absolutely wouldn’t look for it, I’m so proud of what I’ve managed to do and what I’ve overcome. Weight loss was hell but I have all the right things back in my mind to help me keep it all together. I know how to read nutritional facts and not to overindulge, when my body is starving for an energy source or in a calorie deficit and how to build back up. I’m happy where I am and it feels amazing to see my body again. Always be happy in your skin and don’t be influenced by others. If there’s something you want to change, change it but change it because you want to. Do YOU!
Peace & love